I've never been one to post reviews on products, services, or companies before until only recently. I've only had to do maybe one or two that were not good but for the most part, I try to post reviews that are good and where I receive the above and beyond customer service. I try to always make a point to say "thank you" to the drivers of the VIA transportation service that drive me around, to the VIA staff members who help schedule my rides, Uber & Lyft drivers, to the people who assist me anywhere from the grocery store to the physician's offices etc. It feels good to say thank you and I would like to think it feels good to receive a thank you.
After my separation three years ago, I came to a point where I remember writing in my journal "thank you" to my ex because he left me and looking back it was one of the best decisions for both of us. We had a 14 year relationship filled with love, hate, respect, disappointment, blood, sweat, and tears. He was in my life for a reason. Despite how things turned out in the end, I'm thankful for that opportunity of having him in my life.
One of my previous supervisors used to periodically say thank you to all his employees. He would go around to each one personally and say thank you and always asked how we were and if there was anything we needed, he was there. That thank you I often received stayed with me. It stayed with me because it showed me that he appreciated me and valued me as an employee. Once that supervisor left, those two words of thank you also left. For me, it was replaced with who are you and remind me again of what do you do here, constantly being reminded when mistakes are made and not offering advice on how to correct the mistake, suddenly your integrity and loyalty are being questioned, and your job being made more difficult each day due to unnecessary stress and pressure. Wow, how do you deal with going from thank you to this? At the time, I was wondering to myself if I was in the twilight zone. Is this really happening? Is this just me? Yes, it was really happening and no, it wasn't just me. You start replaying previous conversations in your mind and you start to ask if any of that was real. Was the praise I once received from this individual from the heart? All those times we would laugh, carry on, and have fun at work was that real? I confided in this individual and vented to them about my frustrations from certain aspects of the job and what I felt was wrong with the system. I appreciated how I could be honest with them. They would correct me when I was wrong and if I was in the right, they would agree and encourage me. They always had my back no matter what and I respected them for this. Then literally from one day to the next, everything changed. I remember the specific day when a speech was made and I could tell immediately by the tone that something was definitely different and things were changing and not for the better. It appears that when certain individuals get more power, it goes to their head. It suddenly changes them and their personalities and how they treat people. I was shocked, hurt, angry, and disappointed that this person whom I respected and looked up to was no longer the person I knew. They were unrecognizable to me.
After this chapter in my life ended, I wrote in my journal "thank you". I had to let go of the bitterness and hurt I was feeling and I had to forgive them in my heart. I was thankful that this situation happened because it lead me to the realization that the job was no longer worth my health. For years, I had been placing the job first and my health and quality of life second. My health issues were becoming more serious and I could no longer afford to do this. This period of my life was challenging, rewarding, difficult, a learning experience, and filled with blood, sweat, tears, and yelling at times, but I loved my time there with all my heart. I made the decision to walk away and it was on my own terms and not anyone else's terms. I'm proud of that.
So the journey continues to be thankful each day for the good and the bad.
Thank you.
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